Damn you optimism!

I originally found this image here however, I don't think this is where it originated.

*twistedtruth* written 11/07/09

Annie said: you're never fully dressed without a smile

and I've been walking naked for quite awhile.

This empty feeling that corrupts my being

cannot be done away with despite the skills

of doctors and therapist who try to mold my will--

that I might desire to be happy they postulate

that I might accept my lot in life and look forward to fate

but they did not account for the abyss you've provided

and the filthy bed I made to lie in.

I look at what goes on and see good things around me

but the ever enduring factor is feeling lonely

and desiring, ridiculously, a healing salve

but you've all just made me mad

half crazed with promises and suggestions

only to have so many hopes and dreams molested.

And I'm told that I am beautiful in my pain

a twisted beauty that no one is able to explain

but I can quite quickly paint the picture of why:

there is beauty in death and the failing of my life

is both astonishing and strangely robust

at how I once succeeded but ultimately lost

and the idea that I am drenched in potential

but, honestly, know that at good length I shall fail.

But Annie said to smile, and so I will

you can't say that I don't pull off this depression

without crazy tons of skill.